Good and bad anxiety

I have been dealing with bad anxiety due to racism from people I know personally. These last few weeks have been very painful.

But I just submitted a new job application. It's weird to think about, dealing with racism but also continuing on with everything around me. It has to happen. It doesn't lessen the pain. But I'm excited about something after a long time.

It's creating a mix of good and bad anxiety in me, but for the moment I feel at least something a little good.