Feeling so down!
Hi everyone,
Just coming here to vent so don't feel the need to respond.... Here goes. These past few days have been incredibly hard for me. Everytime something good happens and I find myself being happy it quickly gets shut down. All the bad happens so quickly that I feel as though I lose control of my emotions. I lately have been more depressed than anxious. I don't feel like myself. I have been sleeping more than usual, I feel off and have very little emotion at this point. Yesterday was the worst of them all and I was hoping today would be better. I woke up and felt like meh. I just vomitted which is usually due to anxiety. I am mad at myself because I have been doing so well with not getting sick with that and then out of nowhere the pit of my stomach felt very uncomfortable then boom! Now as I sit here typing this I just feel out of it and still sick to my stomach. The thing is even with everything on my mind I wasn't thinking of anything.... Has anything like this happened to anybody where you get really anxious but can't pinpoint why? I am just getting so sick of this. Everybody says just be happy and think positive but on a whole I am a positive happy person except when I am home. I am so down on my luck and just feel like I could curl up in a bawl and cry forever. I have a month in and half before school starts and I want to get prepared for it but with no help I can't get anywhere. I say this because I am missing key components and nobody will offer to help. I CAN'T do anything right even when I am doing what I am supposed to be doing. I am getting sick of people just telling me well then its your life do what you want. I get that and I want to but that is EASIER said than DONE! With support maybe it would be easier but if I do what I want I know I will be kicked out, living on my own, no school. phone etc. I am independent person but not financially stable yet. Sorry for this long rant but I am going absolutely crazy!