Fear of future and work life
I am studying to get a new job and I have a test some weeks from now.
But I am freanking out because I left three other jobs, because of emotional issues, including anxiety. Have done therapy, tried different things.
I am already thinking: what is the point of working if i can't keep myself there?
Why so much studying and effort?
It feels like it is for nothing, as my wish was to be able to stay in the same job forever and stop studying (this is possible in public jobs in my country, as long as you don't commit crimes).
I can't stop thinking I will have this issues for a lifetime and working will always be hard.
I am spending my savings right now, and I am afraid it will always be like this, jumping from job to job, and using my savings. That is sucks.
@mary31
Hello!
I know it may seem like your efforts are going to waste but just know you are trying your hardest!
Leaving jobs because they made you unhappy are very valid reasons!
Keep pushing. You got this!
The community is by your side!🌿🌺
@innateJoy9602
thanks for those kind words, I will never forget.
Probably everything that you are doing is not in vain, now I am also studying, studying to be a doctor, and when I was faced with the fact that I needed to write a medical fellowship personal statement, I was very worried that I would not succeed and I would not I was sure that I was doing the right thing, that I was going to medical school, but as a result I don’t regret a bit, I’m sure that everything will turn out in the best way, the main thing is to set yourself up correctly
@mary31
Hey Mary!
From what you have described, it seems to me that you left your current job and studied for another job for justified reasons. I understand that you may wish to stay in the same job forever, but I suppose this has a condition, which is that this “forever job” doesn’t bring you significant emotional issues, right? So when it does, it makes perfect sense for you to change.
I understand that the process of change can be a challenging time, both physically and emotionally. The uncertainties of the future leave us worried and anxious, but this is also the nature of change. You wouldn’t know what it would look like, how it would feel to you unless you got there, and then you will be able to make a more informed decision for your next step. It indeed takes courage, energy and time.
That’s very brave of you by deciding to change. It’s already a big, difficult step forward, and you have made it, therefore you should be proud of yourself.
Keep up the good work. I’m sure you will eventually get what you want after your full-of-courage exploration.
@abby62210
I think you really understood me. Thanks for writing, it is been a difficult journey but hopefully I will find my way :)
