Every day
I feel in danger every day. I am always terrified and feel attacked and violated. I am and i cannot prove it because my abusers hide behind national security. It has caused me to be terrified easily of common things.
I hate living like this. I never feel safe. I tried to whistle blow on undercover police and they want revenge.
I do basic routines but they are not much. I am barely functional at all.
My coping tools are spied on and used against me so I dont feel safe doing anything. It is hard enough for me to concentrate and function. This extra stress is making it more cruel.
@sensibleSkies8757 I cannot comprehend your situation completely and have no solution to your problem, but I hope that even if you are sturggling, stressed, and feel hopeless that you don't give up. I do not have a solution but I am willing to listen and many of us this site are as well, so at the very least I hope you do not feel alone
