Does Anybody Else Have On-Off Feelings of...

@AverageAbigail

my heart goes out to you. i'm going through the exact same thing right now. for context, i'm 15 and i'm not talking to anybody right now because my mental health isn't all that great and i want to create some distance in between me and everyone else i know.

i think it's because of my past and how i've had a difficult time trusting people because i was constantly betrayed by people that i trusted. and maybe i feel like i can only trust myself and therefore feel like pushing everyone away every now and then.

what do you think could be the reason for you to be doing this right now?

if you want to talk about it, i'm here for you :)

Thank you for responding, @magicalsilverglitter. I would like to talk about this issue further. How can I send you a 1 on 1 chat seeing as you are a listener?

@AverageAbigail

you can go to my profile and click on "leave a message"

@magicalsilverglitter Unfortunately, there is no "leave a message" button on your profile, so I guess I'll just respond here.

I think my reason is the same as yours -- betrayals and emotional manipulation as well as harsh judgments made me develop trust issues -- and the need to escape these people to start off as a blank slate. This feeling has been going on since I was a child, growing up in an abusive household and bullying in middle school to high school. I reckon it springs up when I feel insecure towards successful family members and friends and when I undergo bouts of self-hatred.

@AverageAbigail

I can understand the lost feeling of an uncertain future. This does make people want to run away and hide from friends and family. The reason may vary like, you don't want to make family worry or you don't want to be judged by friends. It is hard to reveal the most vulnerable part to the people that you know. This is the critical time in life that needs support the most. Don't isolate yourself. We will be here and you are not alone.

@Eudaimonia99 Thank you. Yeah, this is why I'm hanging around 7 Cups to seek support and also support others (it's quite healing to be able to give assistance and a listening ear to those who need it).