Can't sleep vent

Idk if it is because I'm out of my meds, but I'm having trouble falling asleep. I can't even remember the last time this happened... I went to the movies with my ex gf yesterday, we are in good terms and stuff, we both agreed it was not a date. It was a fun afternoon, the movie was great and I had a good time. But as I lay down to sleep I start thinking about everything that happened, how I started to feel insecure around her and how I kind of still do. And I just start crying insteady of sleeping. And it is a cry that hurts. Hurts to remember everything I wanted to say to her, how I was feeling about her. I still care about her, we can't avoid seeing each other every week and I do like talking to her. But sometimes I start thinking I can't get involved, I'll only get hurt if I do so.

I also got fired, but at least it was not my fault, and it is weird to stay home pretty much all day. I live alone and it gets very lonely.

I made plans with some friends for next week but I am getting anxious thinking about it. In a way I feel they are not rly my friends and I'll be uncomfortable around them.

I'm feeling a bit overwhelmed about paying my bills and making a good financial plan, and I have to do it specially now that in unemployed.

I guess this is just a "can't sleep" vent.