A panic attack
I woke up and instead of doing my normal routine to get ready for work I picked up my phone and watched a YouTube video. "I'll just watch one more and then get ready for work". Then I watched another one, and another one.... five hours later I was in bed. Then I was overwhelmed by the guilt and fear of not calling in to work. So I said just one more video.... another 5 hours in bed and everytime I finished a video I felt awful until I became numb. My husband tried to get me moving but I couldn't do it. I couldn't get out of bed or even make a simple decision on what to wear or eat or what to do. I shut down.
That was on Monday. It's now Thursday and I'm still trying to get to work. What am I supposed to do?
@Inangaro
Hi! I'm so sorry to hear you're struggling so much, I hope you're feeling a little better now. I know it's not easy but try not to be so hard on yourself. It's the first time that you felt like this or does it happen a lot? However, if you want to talk we're here to listen and I think you're so so brave for having written this message!
Thank you for your words of encouragement. I find I hard to write this stuff. I don't like complaining. I know I have many good things that I am greatful for...which sometimes makes me feel worse for feeling this way. Like I shouldn't be complaining or I need to be stronger somehow
I've had episodes like this 2 or 3 times a year for most of my adult life. I try to be positive but I feel frustrated when it does happen. I do everything right: I do yoga and mindfulness breathing, I have anxiety apps and a fitbit to monitor my health and sleep, I do affirmations....but I can't control when I get an attack and I can't function when it happens. It can take days or weeks to recover my energy and even then I'm not 100%. It hurts my career, my clients, my family and friends. I tried therapy but its not affordable for me to sustain longer than a few months even though it does help and I see progress. I can't seem to "stay fixed" and it is frustrating and painful and I can't move past my anger.