Anxious about future and want a baby

@ImVivienn It sounds like having a baby would be really exciting! There are so many mothers in the world who treat their children with so much love and care while still having anxiety or any other mental illness. I'm not saying it's going to be easy but I believe if you set your mind to it, you're strong enough to make things work and find a way to cope with whatever happens. Parental love is unconditional, capable of overcoming a multitude of obstacles to ensure a happy life for your child. It'd be robotic to be completely at ease with life and NOT worry, your concerns are completely natural and it's okay.

That said, seeking out resources like counseling, therapy, meditation, research about parenting, or whatever else may help with your anxiety would probably be useful. I imagine you've probably already started looking into some of that so all I can do is tell you that being overly anxious and caring too much is better than not caring at all. There are so many positive ways things can work out, you are capable of so much more positive things than it can feel like sometimes.