A fearful day...

I live with fear. It's irrational fear but it consumes me more days than not. Feel as though there's a heavy weight burning me from the top of my head to my stomach where my heartbeats loudly and unevenly. I tell no one (except for you). Is it stress or anxiety or fear? No matter it's name it defines my days, my nights. I am older now. I no longer wail and shout with maudlin. I accept there's something wrong with my mental mechanics. But, it doesn't make it any less than a horrible place to exist. That's my story (at least for now). Hope to hear I am not alone.