Anxiety and loneliness
I think loneliness is making my anxiety worsen. Since I noved in with my parents who live in a different city than the one my university is in, I lost contact with my friends. We didn't meet anymore so we drifted away. I became isolated from other people. When I do go to the university (which happens like1 time in like a month because I do research from home) I feel like an extra, I don't have any connection with people there and it feels bad. Even back at home, J don't have friends because people around me are either too old or too young, it's such a small city so there is no where to socialize with new people. I feel like I'm wasting my youth like this. I should be enjoying it meating friends and going out but all I do is stay at home. I came to visit my sister and stay with her for few days, when she's busy doing her own things, I either stay at home or go to the coffeeshop and most times I dont speak to anyone. It's driving me crazy and making me turn to this pathetic needy person who NEEDS to have people to function. It really sucks.
@Marouh
Hi, i had a similar situation. Once you loose the people who know you and appreciated how you are and whom you trusted it can be difficult to find new people, particulary if you feel that you could not be fine with others for reasons like you mentioned and isolation develops easily. I thought I was alone but found out that lots of other people have the same problem, even some of the ones I knew from the past, their were waiting for someone to reach out as well which I did. They might not replace the loved friends I grew up with but with acceptance of their personalities I found out they are good company.
I became much more encouraged to go to social events and also have a brief chat wherever I can, even if it is just in a shop with another shopper or the cashier. I hope very much you will find a way to make yourself comfortable again with others, may be something will work for you (joining a sports/art group etc., nature walk or whatever is available).
@amiablePeace77
Hey amiablePeace, thanks for your reply.
You're right about isolation; it really develops easily. It's hard to be out of a social circle and then suddenly join it. I feel that being isolatted for a long time had changed my personality. I used to be fun to be with and it was easier stricking conversations with people. But now I feel like I create an awkward atmosphere because I really don't know what to say, if I force myself I know that I look like I'm fake or something. I wish I could just go somewhere far away and start over, sadly there are some circumstances that stop me from doing so. I'm glad to know that you are trying to change and be sociable, it's not an easy thing to do. And thank you for your kind words 😊
@Marouh
It must be awful for you feeling to have created an awkward atmosphere because due to lack of practise you did not know what to say, particularly knowing that before you were a person others liked to be around. I was wondering whether you could still do some of the things which were fun to you before and led you to be that kind of person.
