who am I
i don’t feel like myself anymore. my anxiety is making me think negatively about everything and i used to be so positive and bubbly. i don’t feel like myself at all and it makes me so scared i just want to feel like me again but i don’t know how.
@rrptz19
Losing
your sense of self, something so fundamental to our life experience,
and to not know how to find it again, must feel so scary. No wonder you
are feeling anxious. When we know who we are, it's like an anchor in
the harbour, helping us to weather stormy seas. And so to lose that,
it's like you're all adrift, left to the whims of the waves of anxiety
and the winds of uncertainty.
I can imagine getting those needs met for self-expression, self-care, self-connection must feel so difficult right now - because how can you care for yourself when you don't feel like yourself, or don't even know who you are?
I like
how you labelled your anxiety as something which isn't yourself. It's
very true - it's making you think negatively, but you are not a negative
person. Your true self is still inside you, even if you can't feel it
right now.
It's always inside you. The positive and bubbly you is still in there.
Thank you for allowing me to talk to you,
To be myself again would feel like a constant hug given by myself. Being able to tell myself everyday when things get tough that “it will be okay we can do this” I can’t even bring myself to do that anymore. It makes me feel positive and bubbly to always smile. To always be the one person in every room that smiles and is laughing and is happy. I miss the feeling of having clarity in my mind. Everything is now so foggy and dull i don’t know what’s happened. My true self would love to wake up and work out. I can’t do it anymore. I just sleep to get away from the constant headache and busy thoughts.
@rrptz19 Hi, I understand completely what you mean...you lose yourself into the anxiety and you can think of nothing but that. And you do feel your losing yourself, but you aren't. You are still you, you are just entering into very unwelcoming area that terrifies you. But you aren't totally lost, you are still there. It just the anxiety is overwhelming it, but there is always a light before you. And that light is the positive and bubbly self. I have found that talking helped me tremendously and we are all here for you.
@rrptz19
I’m guessing it’s your anxiety that took the positive you away from you. If so, can I ask why you’re letting it? Anxiety isn’t a 24/7 thing even though it feels like it is. It’s a temporary come and go thing. If you want it gone and you wanna go back to your real self, the positive you, then you have to do whatever it takes to make that happen.
I guess you know what caused you to feel scared and have anxiety? I’m thinking it’s gotta be more than just not feeling like yourself but idk for sure. If it is more than just that, you gotta figure out everything that led you to be scared and have anxiety. Write all of those things down and work on them one by one. You can go in small steps if you find it easier. When one thing is done being worked on, go on to the next one till they’re all finished. Seek help from a therapist or someone like that who can help you.
Please talk to me my friend if you need to I’m here for you ❤️❤️❤️