Rage against and in my family
I developed a bad habit when my son was a baby, during peripartum depression/anxiety. I often felt like my husband wouldn’t listen to me and kept talking over me. I would become enraged and scream at him. It worked to get him to stop talking at me. Now I lose my temper often. He pushes pushes pushes me and I swallow it swallow it swallow it, responding calmly until finally it explodes out. I’ve learned to feel it coming and manage to make the words polite, but I scream it without intending to. I feel out of control. My son has picked up the behavior and yells at people who try to help him, even at kids in kindergarten. It’s awful that he’s doing it too. I’m trying to stop, but I don’t know how. I’m trying to figure out whether some kind of boundary will help, but I don’t know what it would be.
