Not feeling like I belong

I’ve been feeling a lot more anxious as of late. It was just the one year anniversary of my best friend of ten years falling out with me and her birthday just passed so that’s probably contributing. If you’ve seen my previous posts, you know how it went down. Ever since her, I’ve struggled with deeper emotional connections, vulnerability, and making/maintaining friendships. I just had a vulnerable moment and let my current trio in on some of this and I think I might have accidentally offended one of them. I feel really bad and told them I feel really bad about it and will think about this interaction and think they hate me for hours or days. They both said they don’t hate me and couldn’t hate me, but even in the way they said it, I feel like they hate me and are just hiding it. And if they truly don’t hate me, I feel like they should. I feel the anxiety pulsing and I desperately want to find a way to completely withdraw myself from both of them, but we’re heavily involved in the same programs and extracurriculars.

@littleStrawberries1840
I think when we have anxiety we second guess ourselves and often apologize for things we do not need to.
Your friends said it was not an issue and can move on when anxious overthinking has us keep these situations alive people get frustrated by that and many do not see how we cannot move on from whatever the situation is. The continued apologizing or dwelling on items IMO drove more people away from me then items so small i cannot even remember them now.