Love hurts

Hey everyone. Been a long time I wrote here. I wanted to share a part of my journey. I fell in love with a guy for the first time ever and it did not go well. I was deeply in love with him and his friends caused me a lot of trouble. I never got a chance to confess to him. I just started to not think of him and live my life. But I still cry and pray for him all the time. I don’t know whether I still love him or not now because I refrain myself from thinking about him. But I still truly care for him even now. There’s this new girl in my class who has a crush on him. It’s nothing serious she says, she just wants to date him. She said she’s not in love with him neither has any feelings for him. She just likes him for his body and looks. (That’s what she says) and her close friends said that she never goes for commitments or relationships, she just dates & loses interest. Never serious. I have this gut feeling that the guy also likes her back. This makes me very sad. Because I loved him truly and he didn’t even bother to think about me, then this girl came with the wrong intentions & everyone is helping her to get to him! Even this friend of mine with whom I’ve shared my feelings about the guy is also helping this girl to get to him. This hurts a lot because no one will ever understand how much I loved him & what I got in return. I can’t explain in words what I feel for him. But yet everyone is supporting this other girl. Guys I really don’t know how to get over this now. This just hurts. This is not fair!! I loved him! She doesn’t! Yet she gets to have him! She gets to have what I’ve been wanting for the past 2 years. I know everyone keeps saying “whatever happens, happens for good”, “just forget him”, “move on”, etc and I know these things. But it’s not easy to go from deeply loving & caring for someone, to absolutely forget them. It’s freaking impossible! I really don’t know what to do. I haven’t had anxiety for a long time but now my anxiety is triggered even more than before and I cannot eat anything due to anxiety stomaches. Everything makes me throw up. Specially what hurts is that friend of mine, who knew how much I’ve cried for that guy for the past 2 years, is helping her to get to him and supporting her. Even the guy’s friends, who messed up with me which lead me to cut him off forcefully, are also helping and supporting her to get to him. This hurts a lot. I have this pain in my heart that I cannot explain in words hence I became silent. Silence is all I can express right now.