@MysterSoup I want to tell you that the thoughts that you think in it everybody thoughts in it also , but some people behave with them in the right way and others behave with them in the wrong way. First, in order to get rid of those thoughts, you must say to yourself that I was not created and I was not in this life except for a good reason, and who is the one who He created me in this life only because I have an important role in it, and because the balance of the world will not be complete without the presence of all its individuals. Therefore, I was not created in vain, and I was not in this life without a reason. Rather, there is an important reason for my existence in this life. Then you must begin your journey to find out that reason. I will tell you a little about myself. I encountered such ideas and dealt with them by learning about all religions. I read a lot about religions and began to read more and more to find answers to questions about: What is the reason for my existence? Praise be to God, I found the answers in the Islamic religion. I am not telling you to go and embrace the Islamic religion, but I advise you to go and read about all religions, and you will find the answers to your questions in all of those religions, but here comes the individual’s conviction in the most logical answers. For me, the answers of the Islamic religion were more convincing, so I embraced it and these thoughts started fade away little by little. Because of my experience, I notice that these thoughts will remain with you if you do not search for the answers yourself. From what you wrote, I notice that you love science and reading. Therefore, truly, by knowing religions in depth and by understanding all the scientific miracles mentioned in them, you will truly be certain which of them is correct. And I am really sorry that you are being bullied at school. I want to tell you that Muslims are really not like that. They really do not bully anyone because in our religion it is forbidden for us to bully anyone. Therefore, I want you to remind the Muslims who are with you in school that it is forbidden to bully, and if they continue to bully, know that they are not Never Muslims, because a Muslim does not bully anyone, regardless of their color, gender, religion, or race. Therefore, please tell them that what you are doing is wrong, and if they continue with what they are doing, you must move to another school, because these people are not truly Muslims, and they are, by their actions, distorting the image of Muslims, because truly, Muslims do not bully anyone.