Hello I'm New an hear to cope with ADHD/RSD

So as some of us know, is you have a traumatic past while having ADHD, there is a chance you'll with up with RSD on top of that. RSD being (Rejection Sensitivity Dysphoria). What is that? Some may ask. It's not getting sad over rejection. It is a over reactive anxiety caused by the fear of being rejected by your loved ones. Like family, friends, spouses, extra. This can be brought on by simple moments of someone critiquing you, or expressing something they wish you'd do differently. For other people, they can normally take the critiques. Though people with RSD, may feel an intense sense of anxiety. That some even describe as actual pain, along with overwhelming thoughts and fears triggered by the small harmless interaction. This is RSD, it can be overwhelming and make handling our emotions really hard.

I have RSD, and it can become crippling at times.

I realized something was wrong, a few months back. When my wife started to express to me that she felt like she had to tip toes around my emotions, I didn't get aggressive but I did get overly emotional. And if I thought in the slightest chance she was upset with me, I would instantly fall into panicking and asking if I did something. Which made any situation about comforting me. Which took a huge reality check to realize, we had a deep conversation and it was painful but we got through it together. And I realized I needed help because something was seriously wrong, because it didn't make sense that I would start panicking over small things, thinking it was the end of everything. So I started studying and reaching out. A few months later, I come to learn I have RSD. Where it developed from? Trauma from my psychologically abusive parents, but I recognized that is was my problem to handle. I opened up to my wife about it, and she has been very loving and supporting about everything. Buut, I can't put all my worries and paranoid thoughts into her to set my mind all the time. I can't dump all of that on her, that wouldn't be healthy and would basically put us back at the beginning when we were figuring things out. So I needed to find another outlet, that's when I started searching and found this app. So hello, I have RSD and sometimes it feels like it's suffocating me 💔