Anxiety and Fear

So, I have been learning a lot about myself and my anxiety over the past several years. Today I’m learning… well, not learning, but trying to reason with myself about what I need and my fear of asking.

My therapist … and really, every motivational speaker… says that I need to ask for what I want. If I need someone to call me, I can’t expect they’ll do it. I have to ask.

But its not that easy for me. I have a ton of fear in me that drives my anxiety. I want to know how someone is feeling so I should ask. But then I’m afraid- what if they tell me and it’s bad news? That sends me into an anxiety spiral. What if they say things are fine? That sends me into a “what if they’re just saying that “ anxiety spiral.

What if I reach out and don’t hear back? No call or text message. That sends me into a severe panic mode where my brain struggles endlessly to figure out the why and figure out how to fix it.

This is a very exhausting way to live and I was just wondering if anyone else goes through this.