A day of realization
I haven't posted in awhile. I found a balance with everything until recently.
What changed? Mom. I'm watching a strong, independent stubborn woman crumble into a frightened, fragile child.
About three or four months ago we started noticing confusion and forgetfulness. then she hurt her back. we don't know how. Then she became immobile and the confusion got worse. she fell out of bed twice fracturing many of her vertebral disks.
she's been in the hospital for a week. in that week she went from knowing why she was there to forgetting and insisting they were keeping her against her will. she threw a meal tray, yelled at the nurses and called the cops. she can't move without assistance. she feels trapped and afraid. and I'm making her choices for her because her answers no longer make sense. oh and Everything tastes bad to her.
this is so hard to watch happen. harder than I thought to be this kind of care taker. I feel scared, worried and over stressed. What if I make the wrong choices for her?
Hello.
I'm so sorry to hear about what you're going through with your mums health. It must be really hard to see her going through this and to have so much on your plate taking care of her. Feeling scared and overwhelmed is totally normal. Just know that you're doing the best you can in a tough situation.
Don't forget to reach out to healthcare providers and loved ones for support and guidance in making decisions for your mom's health. Stay strong and remember to take care of yourself, too, during this challenging time 🤗