Ability to sabotage
I’m not completely ok with my ability to sabotage or destroy myself. The idea of me capable of such things makes me extremely anxious and overwhelmed. I cannot really think of anything else. It drives me crazy and cannot enjoy myself, not even on weekends. So imagine how I feel about other who I cannot control or read their minds. My anxiety goes to the roof when I think of approaching someone or someone approaching me. My imagination goes wild and cannot think of anything else beside what they could do to me, are they going to hurt me, humiliate me, kill me even?
Anyone has similar experiences?
@Mshadows
The fear of self-sabotage and unpredictable interactions with others can be overwhelming. Many people share similar anxieties about social interactions and unknown intentions with others. Seeking support can offer valuable ways to manage these thoughts and fears. You're not alone in feeling this way, and professional help can provide ways to ease your anxiety.
Self sabotaging.
This word made me stop and read the whole message.
Cause this is how I feel I'm sabotaging myself or this is what my mind is programmed to do now.
I understand how do you feel. Im not having the same thoughts but I have my own bad thoughts.
I know you may feel obsessed with ideas and you truly know you made them up. And nothing of what your mind had created will happen now.
I feel you and I know how much you feel scared and lose control on your thoughts.
You are not alone
And as the previous reply said. We need support from a specialist.