@ZombieLife89
I'm right here with you, Zombie. I'm hearing just one of the ways you weren't allowed to flourish during this relationship - like, being intentionally discouraged from learning something new. In a relationship where you were ever condescended, discouraged or underestimated.. it often leads to the deterioration of our Spirit over time. Fortunately, our Spirit can be far more resilient than we realize.
Someone cheating in a relationship is not ever personal to you. It's usually more indicative of their own insecurities and inner-struggles, which can often lend to projecting these onto others - like you experienced.
While transitional periods are uncomfortable, and even excruciating at times, it sounds like you have an opportunity to take control over your narrative in ways you weren't able to before... to make creative choices and figure out... who you are and what you're made of without any external negative influences.
Self-esteem takes time to rebuild. The relationship we have with ourselves often needs mending after relationships where love wasn't always, or ever, present. Give yourself grace. Give yourself patience during this time and know you're capable of wonderful things. To make progress, if all we can be is 1% better each day. Even small greatness can amount to so much more as time passes. We can't overlook the value of the small positive changes we make as we move forward.
Feel welcome to check back in with us and keep us updated! Best wishes on your journey.
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♡Zaati