Anxiety triggered by staying home?

So, I'm an introvert and I get anxious when I go out, but I get even more anxious if I stay in my house all day- anyone else?

Like I can never seem to fully give myself over to my hobbies here because there is too much history here, too many reminders of who I really am- I just can't relax or concentrate and I just spiral in my thoughts and feelings.

My friends love staying at home so they never understand how I can't just chill and enjoy myself- like when I'm with them, we need to be driving around or doing an activity or I will spiral.

I like being out in public because I can use my social anxiety to fuel the idea that other people have a certain idea about me and so I have to fulfill it- I must be erudite and dedicated with all my work out so I BECOME that person while under that imagined pressure.

Without that pressure, without being witnessed and having to perform, I crumble back into myself and I hate it.

Okay, rant over. I'll brush my teeth and see if I can escape the house sooner rather than later today.