I hate my hobbies and I'm so unmotivated 🙄
I have so many things I could be doing but no, ✨ADHD paralysis✨ pops in saying "surprise biiiatch, bet you thought you'd seen the last of me.
I just don't know what to do with myself. I've never felt so lost, lonely, and isolated. I have no friends, I'm the black sheep of my family because I choose to stay away from activities in which I don't agree with 😬
I'm the cycle breaker, fyi.
My biggest problem as of recently is nothing seems to spark any type of interest or joy. I hate all of my previous loved hobbies and basically all of the above are compounding into depression 🆘
@KaraLikeCareuh
From one cycle breaker to another, I get it. I too have forged a similar path for myself. At times its lonely and maybe even sad, but on the flip side it is also liberating because your living authentically according to your own code and answering to no one.Â
As far as the paralysis goes, ADHD plays into it, but it can also be an overtaxed nervous system. I learned it was called functional freeze and this happens when we are in a constant state of stress over a prolonged period of time. When I started learning about how to improve the health of my nervous system my life changed for the better. There is ample information about this on the web, and teachers who show you how to heal the nervous system with various approaches, so if your curious have a look into it.
Thank you for this. I knew it had to do with Executive Functions not functioning. It's like my brain will sit (and usually make it the overwhelm add up further lol) and just keep firing random thoughts of "we need to do this" "we need to do that" "we need to do this too" "but to do that we have to do this first!" ð¥´
@KaraLikeCareuh
I understand what it must be like for you right now. I have been there too. Being completely isolated from everybody may not seem ideal for you right now. I would say, holding yourself in compassion would help, even if a little.Â
Hang in there, you will come out of this stronger. Try not to be too harsh and take it one step at a time. Remember, one step is a huge leap in these times. Hope you come out of this soon.Â