Struggling to cope with masturbation habit
(Earlier post got accidentally posted)
Its been some weeks I haven't consumed porn content. Though I do admit, I have masturbated without porn, because the anxiety became so much, I had to relieve myself. I guess this happens when you haven't relapsed for 3 weeks and then you do, your body just wants that. Its extremely hard to resist it. So, I decided I'll don't watch porn to relieve, I'll do it without it. So I have never counted them as a relapse, because I am really fighting porn addiction first.
Though I admit, I watched today, for good 1 or 2 hours, didn't relapsed, but I feel bad for going there. I felt like watching it, may let go of this anxiety I am feeling, but no, wrong idea. It relaxes you for a while, but later, your mind wants that.
Here is a catch and quite interesting. It's not my mind which wants it, now that I have watched it, it does, but really is my body, which is seeking satisfaction. I may have accumulated a lot of stress in my body and its want to find relief. I am seeking for physical connection now. Like I want things for real, not what porn serves me. I want to make real connection, real sexual connect too.
For that, I guess, I have made a masturbation habit, I don't need porn now to excite me, my mind is enough for that. I feel urges and want to just stroke to relax it. I don't know how many of you connect with this, but I hope someone does. I want to get out of this habit and be more involve in other aspects of my life, rather than being in porn world.
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@amiableFig7651
No worries! Removed the other one to avoid duplicacy!
@amiableFig7651 i can totally understand. Porn and masturbation habits are really difficult to break. Specially when you are 20 plus your body craves the physical connection unfortunately. At this time, having someone, who can keep a check on you and pushes you to stop this habit is really necessary.
@humanbeing02 like an accountability partner
@amiableFig7651 yes exactly
@amiableFig7651 maybe you are fulfilling a gap with something that isn’t what it needs. Try to reflect on what are you avoiding to face about yourself. Try to feel your emotions differently. Healthier way get out of your comfort zone by feeling what you don’t want to feel. Remember it’s just a feeling it won’t harm you to know yourself.
@honestOak9778 its tiredness and stress in me which I am trying to let go from it. Also, the fact that it hits hard beings single, i am learning to be, when you want it to happen to you, but it doesn't.
@amiableFig7651 yeah stress has to come from some where. Try to surface it from your subconscious. Your body can be the one reacting to something threatening and making you feel stressed but you can’t know because it’s your brain that’s talking to its self about this threatening thing.
I understand bro. I’m literally going through the same exact thing. I’m trying to stay clean for the month of June. We’ll see how that goes. You can message me privately and we can be each other’s accountability partners, so we’ll update each other on our journey and we can talk each other out of the urge
