I have a weird addiction and no one is helping
Hi everyone. I am a 15 year old guy and I have a weird addiction. I have a wedgie fetish. It is interfering in my life so much. I can't concentrate on my studies. I just keep thinking about wedgies. I search for images, videos, dares, stories etc. on internet. I do self wedgies almost daily. I do hanging, permanent, propeller etc. and waste a lot of time and energy. It leaves me exhausted. It's like self abuse as I hurt my ass badly. I really don't want to do it but I am addicted to it. Whenever the urge comes I forget everything that it is bad for me but I can't stop as if someone is controlling me. I feel anxious if I don't do. I often ejaculate after doing wedgie. I feel so embarrassed and guilty about it. Please help me. Please don't ignore. It is a humble request.
@dynamicCucumber339
I hope you have never had anyone sexually abuse you in your life. If you have that is a possible cause as to why you are addicted to it and I hope you can find books, a therapist, or friends that can help you through that.
If not, then it seems you are using this to sexually abuse yourself. You do not have to do it. Yes, you may experience temporary relief but are expressing that you want to quit so journal out a plan to stop. Take away all triggers, spend time and effort into healing yourself, and re-focus that time and energy onto something more productive. Do something creative or hey become more involved in sports, academics, or the arts. Heck with whatever energy you have to do wedgies replace wedgie time with one of the three above or even all three.
@dayhawk68 Thanks for your support .
I had decided not to do wedgies and I was successful for some time but again I failed to control and the relapse occurred. I forgot everything when the urge came and I was not able to think anything but wedgies. I feel so bad now. I don't understand what to do. Please tell me some concrete steps to take when the urge comes. Tell me something which can be done quickly to forget wedgies. I would be very thankful if you would suggest me something.
@dynamicCucumber339
Wrangler501 is right those suggestions can work. You can also look into loose underwear. You can drink water when the urge comes being that a reminder that wedgies hurt you.
@dayhawk68 Now slowly I am learning to fight the urges and I have even suppressed few successfully but inspite of not doing wedgies actually the thought of wedgies comes again and again to my mind. It makes me restless. I am grateful to you both for your friendly support. Please tell me how can I calm down my mind and get it off from wedgies. I want to forget them and I don't want to get attracted towards them.
@dynamicCucumber339. Hi, this is very common feeling at the time of withdrawal.
Please control and focus. Keep your self busy
@AListenerFriend Hi, thanks for your advice but can you explain it clearly that by what way can I focus? Because I just had a relapse after controlling myself for more than 3 days. I could not resist myself as I was feeling restless. Please tell me how exactly I can get my mind away from wedgies.
@dynamicCucumber339 This may or may not help but think of the abuse to it. Or If you're restless think about the worst case scenerio if you did the wedgie. Then try one of the positive things we already discussed.
@dayhawk68 think of the conaequences to your actions