Update on addiction.

Recently learned the porn addiction is very new and have very negative impact on so many people. So i decided to be open about it to raise awareness about it. But because of the affects it as on me so it ended up being misintepreted. But after i found fightthenewdrug website and yourbrainonporn realized why i couldnt resist the temptation. It very difficult and not many people known this issue to be a real issue. Most people wouldnt care about it because its not alchohol or cocaine or heroin. Im in asia which make things worse.

I dont know the effects that it has now to the people i open up to. My name or family. Lately stressed because of it thinking if i could somehow with missing teenage years get a job outside of this country and to a place where they understands and can help would be better. Not to say people around me donr help me but just the barely known part makes even my family treat me like trash even in their tone sometimes.

Theres many positive step i took to understand and work toward something better but if this is how they interpret my addiction then i couldnt bare to be in this country. No one would understand it enough even most people would put a blind eye to it.

I know theres thread and website but if my current life is like this then this is ***. Jobs not going well then this? Just another downwars spiral.

Just vent it out since how stressful it is for me now.