Becoming aware š¢
I was just recently told āI need helpā and that I have a āserious drinking problemā. I started to question if maybe I do.
He said I became aggressive, but what I recall I donāt believe I did. None the less, my memory is foggy and not all I can remember clearly. After saying that, maybe I do have a problem I havenāt been wanting to recognize and accept. I just wished he would have been better with his approach when he said that to me.
At the moment Iām feeling a lot of emotions that I canāt quiet figure out. Most of all I feel ashamed and lonely. My life has taken an unexpected turn and Iām faced with difficulties I didnāt think Iād be dealing with at this point in life. He was someone I thought I could trust and ultimately thatās not the case.
I told him I was sorry that I didnāt mean to hurt him. This had been the first time something like that has ever happened. The way he treated me after is what Iām having a hard time with. This is someone Iāve known for years and he treated me like someone he had just met.
I will take accountability for my āepisodeā. I did over do it and perhaps I got physical with him. I am currently looking for help to stop drinking, but Iām mostly hurt the way he treated me after. I keep telling myself that I need to find a positive out of this terrible action.
Im confronting my drinking problem, I apologized to him, but it wasn't enough for him. It does hurt because this was someone I really cared about and he treated me like a nobody. I wasnāt given a chance to make it right. He made me feel broken, crazy, ashamed, dirty, and empty. š¢. I do feel terrible about having hurt him but how can I try to fix something I wasnāt given a chance to fix?
thanks for listening. Maybe I just needed to finally say it to be able to move forward with my life. Im striving to make my life better and healthier.
@amusingMoon4593
i am going through something similar. I had major trauma and drinking seemed to help. It never made me aggressive. But he broke it off though he drinks whenever he wants. 15. Itās been 2 years since we talked so I guess heās fine without me. I miss him a lot.