1 week clean

I guess I won’t go into too much detail right away. For the sake of context though, when I was in highschool i developed a thing for pain killers. This stemmed from an athletic injury like most of the stories I’ve heard unfortunately. But anyway it got pretty bad eventually I got into other stuff to counteract effects. Like doing coke to wake up from a muscle relaxer things like that. Since then I’ve thrown myself into the deep end of combat sports to help me cope and stay clean. On Tuesday of last week my nose was broken during sparring and when I went to the ER the doctors told me they were gonna give me “something small and simple for the pain” Unfortunately I was in so much pain and frustration from the 9 hour lobby wait that I forgot to request that they don’t give me any opioids. About another hour later a nurse comes in and hands me a small pill and a water and I took the pill before he could tell me that it was a very strong opioid. I immediately felt myself sink into the ground, for lack of a better description. Before that I had been clean for 2 years and 6 months. The body aches since the pill the ER gave me have been horrendous. I can’t tell my girl how bad it hurts right now because she knows how bad I was and I don’t want her thinking I’m gonna fall back into it. She never saw it first hand but she knows mostly everything that I put myself through. Anyway I didn’t mean to make this so long I just wanted to tell anyone other than my girl that I made it to a week again. It hurts to start over but everything happens for a reason. If you read this far thank you I really really appreciate it.