I want / need this to end
My gambling started 3 years ago or so, my friends went to a casino one night, and the next time i went with them, i started out Playing roulette, it was fun, I've never gambled or was much of a betting man before that.... Until i discovered slots.
Since the first time i won big on a slot machine I've been hooked, i have tried stopping more times than i can count, i don't believe myself at all anymore when i tell myself that "this was the last time" i know it's not, i know I'm lying to myself. I know i have a huge problem, since i started gambling I've been broke, every paycheck i would get i would lose in a day, and then lie and borrow money from friends and family, every time i think I've hit rock bottom i surprise myself and fall even lower. I did manage to stop for a year or so, i moved away, and didn't really have money to gamble with anyway, but i didn't even think about it during that time, as soon as I moved back though, the first thing I did was go to a casino and it started all over again, i am exhausted, i am so tired, i want to stop so bad but at the same time i guess i don't, it's a love hate relationship. More hate... The feeling i get when gambling and i win something, or even get free spins on the slots with a decent bet size.... It's better then anything I've ever experienced, better then sex. Nothing really comes close to it. This post doesn't really have a point i just needed to vent i guess. This has been a really bad day
Are you able to enrol yourself into those gambling rehab. sessions? What are you motives for gambling and returning to the casino? Is there a void you're trying to fill, upon winning each time? Is there something else you can do (rather than heading straight to the casino) after getting your pay cheque? It is a good start that you have the thought of wanting/needing to stop gambling. Indeed, it will be disastrous if continued to long periods of time. I'd suggest to find some support, someone that can help "control" your urges to gamble whenever you get your hands on money~
@Gamespy56
I'm in the same boat...playing blackjack I played so much I got bored...than slots I always laughed at them...but I live in a area where there's 40 arcade slot businesses on every corner. Covid slowed my gambling down right when I left living in Las Vegas. I was living in one of the nicer hotels on comps for a while. Than luck went south...I was homeless on the streets of Vegas in the winter. I lost friends and family...drugs alcohol and gambling and fucking what I did.
If I was lucky flying a sign provided me just enoughh to where I could play and usually get me and friends I met a room.
Currently I still battle this addiction. The worst one ive ever faced ...im in a relationship where it will be the end soon if i don't stop. There's no winning this game...the house always wins. Let me know if u need to talk.... or shoot me a message. -J