Benzos

So ive been using benzos for over a year now. At first they were prescribed, but due to leaving therapy my prescription was taken away. So I started buying my own, which quickly led to the downward spiral I'm in right now. At first I only took them every once in a while when I felt too anxious, but these days it just won't stop. I can't day I'm popping 5mg or more a day, maybe around 3mg or less throughout the day. And have been taking them daily for around a month now. I can't go a day without at least 1mg. And I don't want to suddenly stop because I know all too well that the withdrawals aren't fun.

But my dealer is away, and I'll probably run out before I can get more. I'm scared of how I'll react, doctors not being an option. Advice would be welcomed