The Birthday Part 2

While at Jade's birthday it got a bit uncomfortable bcuz I could feel tension in the house even though I sat in the corner minding my business. The ex left and it turns out the girl Jade was supposedly talking to was her BFF (also another weird story later on).

We leave and honestly Jade's energy caught my attention, although she was the biggest flirt of a female I had ever met! She still caught my attention. Fast forward... never once did I think she was ever in a relationship or even working through one bcuz she was always flirty with other females and touchy.

I texted her one day and told her I had a crush on her and I don't know where it came from lol she was intrigued bcuz I never really spoke to her like that for anything and we barely saw each other.

Fast forward again, we're hanging out a little more. We even ride together to my friends house to play cards. That night she gave me a kiss on the cheek, it was sweet but I kept in mind she was also drinking. I end up sleeping over her house in her bed! Welp.... it happened. If you hadn't guessed.

The next morning was the worse day of my life and if I could go back and do different oh I would have because I wouldn't be in the insecure triggered lack of confidence mindset that I'm in now.