Hi juliak1968 I am truly touched by the way you describe your anxiety. It brought me to tears. I may not know what you've gone through but I share your pain. I myself had battled anxiety for a long time, therefore I have a soft spot for those who had / is going through anxiety. Julia dear, you are not alone in this, and I believe you are strong. I'm not gonna say something like stay-strong but I do wanna end with something like this:
Find that one thing or one person or one memory or one moment in life, that you truly love / cherish.
E.g. it could be your pet goldfish, the flowers that bloom along the street, a stranger that you've conversed with, the smell of your fav book, your favorite song, a childhood friend, etc... and declare ownership of it. Say to yourself you are worthy of these emotions. Cherish them the most during times when you feel alone, when no one understands you, when you feel bad or feel nothing at all. For I am very convinced the absence of fear is not just bravery, it is also love.
For you're worthy of all the wonders of the world ❤️
Regards,
Adeline
