Tired of feel lonely all times.
Ive experienced through loneliness all entire life, no one could or has saved me to be completely happy.
I dreamed that I'd meet somebody to make me feel alive and happy, i but it seems never did or maybe short so i grew up in a world and became a lonely wolf for how i feel i am alone in my thoughts and emotional embrace.
I tried to create this for myself, i feelt like if i cant get that i make this and if i cant reach those i make those.
i got no friends, i created friends, love i created my love, i got no family so i keep creating my world.
But im no god but i managed to create my life how i wanted.
Here i am today in my own broken sky, feeling a rain cloud over me every day.
I am a family-father to lovely 3 kids, got myself the princess a beautiful wife, got my job as my sword and roof over my head to keep myself in my tent.
I have it all anyone would wish for wants, but i feel ive not created myself a new heart.
i drown myself deeper down in my own hole of loneliness, and she feels lonely ofcs from not reaching her partners love and strenght, but i tried but not enough feel im losing myself.
My kids keeps my strenght on and i love them so much, they happy and lovely but i cant use them as my crying pillow, i got no real friends at all, i got no family at all outside my own i created.
Wrong word is that i say creating but thats how i feel and felt for my entire life
Family members are the best friends one can get in life. That's been my experience. You have those. Congratulations. Maybe you could see them as friends and your loneliness will be less.
I understand, sometimes you can feel loneliest when around people you love. I think it might stem from feeling deeply misunderstood and an inability to love one’s self. You sound like a very intelligent and sensitive person. I feel like talking with a psychologist about your feelings would help if you can identify it’s root causes and help you find more happiness within yourself and be able to enjoy all the wonderful things you have created around you with your loving wife and children. I believe in you and thinks you will find your way through this and wishing you all the best in your journey to find peace and happiness.
It's not a good feeling at all. I understand what you mean. Have you considered joining one of our Huddle groups? There's a small support group for people who are dealing with loneliness that meets on Mondays from 8-9pm ET.
You sign up through this form https://docs.google.com/forms/d/e/1FAIpQLScZXacQlrcHbrXGjWOgTRqc9rD8wjW-V5EGszqJfmVvcFP8HQ/viewform
These are closed groups and what you reveal is kept within the group. You can really be yourself and let it all out, while also working towards feeling better.
You can read about our small Huddles right here https://www.7cups.com/forum/GroupModZone_168/7CupsHuddles_2394/HuddlesSeason2SignUptoParticipateinaClosedGroup_286178/
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