I don’t know how to explain it, but every day I wake up and everything is unfamiliar. Some of it makes sense, I lost my job, marriage, home, and siblings all within a very short period of time, and maybe I’m just still in shock from all of that but it was like 6 years ago.
Some of it doesn’t make sense because it’s the way things have always been, but I’m just baffled by everyday things to the point where I am feeling like I got off at the wrong reality or something.
Also, I just want to say thank you for being so warm and empathetic. I feel very lucky to live in a time and place where I can connect on a mental and emotional level with people I probably will never see, and where it’s okay to not be okay for a while.
Social services in the US may not be robust enough, but I’m not homeless yet and I’m so grateful for that, sitting here listening to the rain.