I cheated
I figured out how much I appreciate my boyfriend and how much I want him to be the father of my kids after I cheated on him. It's been half a year since I did this horrible mistake. Since then I've been going to bed feeling guilty and crying tears of regret.
The guy I slept with is by far gone, blocked and erased. I tried ending whatever I we had in good terms so I wouldn't have to worry so much about him doing anything stupid. However he used to follow me on intagram and has seen my boyfriends profile for sure.
My boyfriend and I have a long distance relationship because I'm studying dentistry in an other country for the time being. He has no clue of what I've done.
I know a lot of you would advise me to tell him the truth, but that cant be an option for me. I much rather break up with him telling him a much less painful excuse. The truth is selfish and painful, also I'm certain he wouldn't forgive me, so it wouldn't do any good.
I'm just not sure if I should consider not saying anything and going on with life and take the next steps it this relationship, or end it.
Please dont ask me why I did it because I really dont think theres a reason. I love my boyfriend now more than ever and this situation is hurting me so bad.
You are unsure if there is a reason or not, but trust me, there is, and there is always a reason one will consciously go through the entire act. This is not like spilling a cup of coffee or slipping on a banana peel. There was a step by step process that you engaged in.
You would want to continue with the relationship or not, that is your choice, but do not leave people in the dark about what you do.
Always think about how your actions will have a deeper impact. Because it just doesn't affect you, and by that logic, your partner has every right to know what he did.
You will need to live up to your actions, and do it as soon as you can. Because if you leave it to life, and fate to take care of the situation, its turnout will be worse, a lot worse!
Well, there is no garrenty he hasn’t cheated you as well that’s the difficult part of distance relationship. So, in one way as hurtful it would be better true. I recently got to know I have been cheated and it hurts a lot. If he would feel guilt as you do, truly said sorry, he loves me and won’t do it again. There would be back way, forgiveness. But in my case I see just more lies and not really feeling guilty. It just true always comes out somehow and this cheat can hurt much more if he gets know it later on. For example, from someone else and then you might have no possibility to explain yourself and will end anyways. He can accidentally meet guy you cheated with and specially tell it. So, think of it! We all do mistakes and are able to forgive, this can bring your relationship to next level.
