Heartbroken & Depressed
Hi everyone. Sorry in advance if I sound like I’m complaining and ranting. I don’t really have anyone to talk to about this. This seems to be the only space where I csn just let everything out and not pretend evrythjng is ok.
My bf of 12 years told me, right before the holidays, that he “met someone” on a work trip and thinks she might be the “the love of his life.” He’s gone home for the holidays to “think about things.” I’m almost sure he’ll want to breakup when he’s back since he basically hasn’t message me since he left.
I can’t decide if I’m devastated or enraged, probably both. We just bought a house together and I went through 2 years of IVF. I can’t begin to express how upset I am. I can’t sleep at night and dream about this constantly.
I’ve been stable for the last 2-3 years, but this has triggered some major depression for me (I’m bipolar 2, depression being my main issue — and I know I shouldn’t but I always feel ashamed to tell people this),
I’m trying to figure out how to cope with a slew of sad and negative feelings :(
Whoever if reading this, thanks for listening. I really appreciate it.
@Bluestar3. you okay now? how are you feeling?
Hello! 12 years is a long time for them to have just met someone. I’m upset for you! 😫. I’ve been reading this book called “feeling good” and the second book “feeling great”. It’s about changing the way you think about things. I’d love to talk to you more about it and maybe we can fill out a worksheet together.
Your feelings are valid and sometimes it’s ok to embrace the sadness. Try not to predict the future but also prepare for the worst. You have many people on here supporting you (me being one of them!) and hopefully some at “home” too.
If you do happen to break up. Take some time for yourself. You’re experiencing a loss and that’s ok to grieve in any way you feel the need to as long as it doesn’t harm anyone (including you). I’m also bipolar 2 depression being my main. So you’re not in this alone even when it feels like it.
I’ll post the worksheet I’m talking about if I can figure out how to do that 🤔
