46 mom to an amazing 14yr daughter. I’m sick with no diagnosis yet and it’s awakened my anxiety.
Hello. The last month has been horrific. I think it started with a cortisone shot from a knee injury from working out. My whole body went haywire. At least a little related to my Hashimotos. Doctors aren’t really sure what’s going on (I really wish they were all in the same place working together). Anyway, I’m a stay at home mom and currently so debilitated that my poor husband is doing everything. I get ill even if my feet just get cold. And this woke up my anxiety that had been asleep for years. Frequent adrenaline surges driving me nuts. But oddly all I can think is how much I wished I was less of an introvert, wished my family wasn’t so dysfunctional (my parents don’t know, they’d be an anchor), and just wished I had a ton more people around me for love and support. I refuse to weight down my spouse and daughter. They’re great but I know this is hard on them. And we do have friends, but not close enough to be “hug me and tell me it’s going to be ok” friends. This is just such a dark and lonely place.
@Poelarity This is a good place to be. I've dealt with the stumped doctors and off in different places. It's frustrating. Those cortisone shots can last quite a while, hopefully your body is Hopefully with some time and maybe some medication adjustment all that stuff out of whack will go back into balance.
In the meantime, thiis place can help riding out the tough times.
For the anxiety what types of things helped before? You can chat away with others, listeni to some guided metitations or doing some relaxing activities like art, watching a show and discuss that with people in hobby zone.
Thank you! Yes, I’ve been pretty much living up on YouTube with guided meditation, asmr, and binaural beats. I think the difference this time is that whatever wackiness going on with my endocrine system has made it extremely difficult to do anything, including sleep more than a few hours at a time, for 3 weeks. So I’m restless but also extremely tired. And I can’t take any meds for it since my system is unpredictable right now. It’s just tricky. I have an amazing cbt guy (one of the best in the country). I used to only check in 4x a year, but now we’re talking every week so he can help me process the medical results (he knows a ton about the actual presentation of many diseases because it pertains to health psych), and also learn how to not lose my head at the symptoms. It’s just really hard realizing that this is going to be a marathon and not a sprint.
@Poelarity I'm glad you know what works for you and you also have good help. Still it's frustrating especially with lack of sleep! I like distracting audio when I'm having trouble sleeping like podcasts. I find the bit of focus if not too engaging can be what I need but it sounds like what you're dealing with is a bit different so not sure if that would help you too. It's a little different than things specifically for relaxing and I know there are jokes about how true crime helps people sleep so I'm not alone.
I hear you on the marathon it's different than an acute illness.