Trigger Warning* - Fertility & Life

This year, I lost my aunt in March. My mom had colon cancer and lost half of her colon and then turned around to get an unrelated uterine cancer which led to her having a hysterectomy. I was checked for colon cancer, and I don’t have it but now I need to get checked for uterine cancer, which is scary because I already have adenomyosis and I'm not sure if I'm going through pre-menopause. I'll be 39 in a month. In the middle of all of this, my ex-boyfriend of three years decided he just wants to be friends because he doesn’t want kids. Never mind all the testing I went through to see if I'm "not" fertile for him, which I found that I am & just have a low egg count. Recetly I was about to go on a date and the guy said he didn’t want to make things serious because he needs to know for sure if I can have kids. I was in bed crying all weekend. For the last two years, I had a boss who would always belittle me and recently she got let go so now we’re all trying to relearn our jobs because she never really trained us. I recently had a job interview and was suppose to have an interview for another position this morning and had to reschedule due to my mental turmoil. I feel like every time I try to do what's best for me, people feel the need to give me more grief about my life's choices. I dunno anymore, just lost.