12 years of apparent MDD, after 7 years of properly diagnosed, and Declining

Is having a 'super judgemental family but at the same time (they are) generally good people' is everyone's problem?

Judgemental towards you (especially) just because you're the family so they can say whatever they want by claiming that they know you better?

While being so considerate to other people, and able to think positive about other people's behaviour but not yours?

At this age, enough is enough. Whoever you have become today doesn't seem to change their perspective towards you.

I'm a Professional Communication Specialist myself. The irony. People always come to me for advice. But that doesn't help you at all in dealing with this type of family. They will just simply push you until you break - even that, is the biggest point for them blame you over and over again when you react.

Being the youngest - you will always become the immature one in the family, the most emotional one, the most psycho. While those are actually the result of being judged all the time. All your life.

Even worse, to have not-so-understanding spouse. Can never handle your 'peak' reactions when it happens, thus will push you away while an embrace, good words or good ears are all you need. Not all the time. But only during that effing time!

The best part, all of your illness come back, flare up. Due to those effing stupid issues! Stress related illness! Flare up eczeme, unstable angina, severe migraine and blurred vision.

Feel like dying!