Had a terrible Halloween.

It's been a long time since I've had a "fun" Halloween and I can't recall if the last time was when I was still young enough to trick-or-treat or during my teens/early 20s when I'd go out to get blackout drunk at a Halloween party. Probably why I can't remember those times though.

But being in my mid 30s with a decent job, I had some hopes of getting to celebrate at least in a small way. It's probably the only holiday I like because I'm not dealing with the living *** that is family and relatives getting into my business. But just like every year, it's spent working myself half to death for people who do nothing but make me feel like nothing I ever do for them is good enough.

I just want to sit at home and huddle up in my favorite hoodie with some warm tea and play some good horror videogames. Maybe even watch a good scary mini series on Youtube. But even just some quiet time to unwind feels like too much to ask for.