Dwelling on the past

@polerina

Hi there. So sorry you are going through all of this. I can only imagine the stress, plus being a parent on top of it all. But you have to give yourself some credit. You are still here!! A manic episode is just what it is: an episode, a little setback. You can rebuild from it. Meds suck in general, BUT they can help with stability and living "normally". Talk with your doctor about the weight gain. It could take some time to find the right regimen. Take it day by day, you can get your life back. Sending positive, healing vibes to you 💜

Hi there!

I to have Bipolar disorder and I've had it since I was 19. I to have been hospitalized for it on many of occasions for it I totally understand how you feel about yourself and losing relationships and your life along the way abd trying to rebuild your life and yourself again its a lot to handle. I may not be a mom like you but I do get it.

I to was on medications for over 10 yrs I to absolutely hated being on those the side effects were much worse off then the *Bipolar* itself. I'm off all medications have been for the last 15 plus years now. Best thing I did. I hated my personality on those medications it changed me too. It was awfully bad for awhile but now I use natural remedies like CBD or valium on occasions but no drugs .

You're definitely not the only one who had had these experiences ❤❤❤❤

Something that I found difficult in my particular situation is having someone in my life who doesn't understand that your Bipolar doesn't define what you feel or think. You feel what you feel cause you're a human being with feelings and emotions and thoughts. Bipolar is only apart of me its not what defines me!!!! Remember that! You are YOU!!! Don't let anyone tell you that you're *overreacting,* just cause you're *Manic* you're not ! I've been done this way! Its painful and hard emotionally more do especially when you already have mental issues as is it is!!! ❤❤❤❤❤

So important to be yourself and experience the world as you see it and be YOU and be with people who love you for who you are !!!!❤❤❤❤❤

I'm 33 ❤

@polerina

Hi!

First off, I just wanted to say, I'm very proud of you for still being here even through all the pain that you have endured. You chose yourself in this process and its slowly paying off!

I can understand the impatience that it takes to rebuild yourself after feeling like this for so long, but as other people have said, give yourself the credit you deserve! Now is a great opportunity to not only build yourself back up, but you have that ability to reinvent yourself completely! Age is a number, never a mindset. Take a painting class, learn gardening, do a dance class! Hobbies will always be there waiting for you to pick it back up!

As for weight gain, it's normal when taking medicine, that's just your body's way of giving itself some extra slack because its healing! When my mom was on her kidney medication after getting a transplant, she had gained weight and felt insecure for a bit, but that was her body's way of healing! She would just walk every morning for about an hour, and eat smaller portions more often, and eventually the weight melted off! Obviously, weight is not bad, but if this is something that you feel could attribute to a sense of "normality" for you, do what makes you happy!

All in all, you're doing a great job of doing what it takes for you to bounce back. I hope you are drinking water, eating good meals, and spend time with the people you love! I know everything will work out for you and I'm very excited to see that happen for you!

@polerina

I am inviting you to join me in the Sharing Circle chat room ! 😊

Sending you lots of love and comfort and prayers your way!

I know its difficult living with Bipolar it definitely is a huge challenge! It's important to take of yourself that includes your mind and emotions and thoughts

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