Hey. 😊
I’m sorry to hear that you are feeling like this.
when depression kicks my butt, I find I have to force myself to do all the normal parent things as I don’t want my negative feelings rubbing off on them, one thing I used to do was make time for myself, normally after they are asleep, to either do something I enjoy or a bit of relaxing self care like taking a nice warm bath, maybe some scented candles….then if I have some time after, do the thing I enjoy too 😁
as for work, I tried to talk to my boss but they just didn’t understand (however not all bosses won’t) and i ended up having a breakdown and being signed off work which helped me to clear my head.
I have had a couple more breakdowns since which I worked though, i had a better manager who had also had a few breakdowns and was really helpful, giving me extra breaks just to catch my breath and get my head straight.
as my kids got older, we made a rule that we always try to have at least dinner together, where we all talk about our day, I find talking helps the most, even if it’s just talking about my kids or partners day or what they have planned coming up.
I don’t know if any of this is helpful to you but I hope you feel better soon, take care
