Little Rant

So the police dumped my sister on me yesterday. Super feel for the state she's in after all the domestic abuse she's been through and stuck in at home... But the responsibility to undo other people's mess has been left on me.

There's only so much I could do living with schizophrenia and the responsibility of my own child. And I'm annoyed at the irresponsibility of our parents.

It's extremely stressful dealing with the mental health problems of my siblings and I just can't keep her here for my own sake. She's having to go into homeless accommodation.

On a brighter note therapy seems to be going well and I seem to be becoming more approachable without having to try so hard. Insomnia doesn't feel excruciating and instead has a warm caring feeling associated with it and something is just automatically feeling easier on a physiological level.

My son's in work today and I'm going for a massage this morning and looking forwards to the hearing voices support group tomorrow.

So hopefully I'll get some respite today but I am worried that my sister will need to come back today as my nervous system is shot and I'm absolutely exhausted after getting little sleep.