Stress, stress and more stress.

Hello my name is callum. I am 23 years of age (will be 24 this year) anyway I chose to join this thread community and share a little bit about myself and a bit of my life I had to learn at a teenager and hadn't really had that chance to live as they say when your young. Anyway when I was around 16 I chose I wanted to leave home and move out this was around early 2017 just as I was leaving school. I wanted my own company and wanted to see what it was like. I was scared and frightened like anyone would be at such a young age to make such big decisions like that. That wish came true a year and a 3 months later (September 2018) I moved out into my first ever home. I was 17 a month before my 18th Living on my own scared and petrified while I was going to college, it was a support system house for young people expect I was the only one there. With time it got really good and I enjoyed it, things were very stressful at that age I was paying bills washing my own laundry doing the electricity and gas bill paying rent at 17. I hardly even knew about things like this and was always scared that if I didn't pay these bills on that exact date they'd evict me straight up, but I had support workers so it was more of a relief when they helped me with this stuff. Fast forward January 2020 I am 19, getting ready for my first ever council flat. This was when things took a huge turn in life. I was by myself. Had only my mother for a support system but it was stressful and I hardly understood what I was doing. I'd receive mail from Bill companies and when u move in a home they always backdate things for you to pay when u missed late payments etc. Took me 1 whole year to understand this and how it works but by February 2021 (20) I finally got hang of it. I liked it but as time went on I was feeling very unhappy I didn't like where I was living. Things were changing. People were passing away and I was getting older realising that my teens were spent on working on moving out and paying bills and sorting things out and appointments and stuff like that was my real world. I had loud neighbours all they would do is play loud music all the time. They would party all day and all night and my anxiety was through the roof I couldn't Watch TV or play on my video game so I would go to the bathroom sit on the floor and use my earphones and put them In to block sound out. And sit there and be upset. So by 2022 December being age 22 i was stuck with such bad news that my mother's fiance had sadly passed away from (TW) Suicide. This hit us hard. I only spoke to this guy 2 hours beforehand and he was gone. It took a turn on me for the worse as it did my mother too. So I chose I was gonna move in with her give my only apartment up and support her so she wasn't alone. This all happened by January 2023 and I've been here since. Its taken a toll on me and I've recently gotten more worse with how my feelings are and my stress levels are through the roof i can never stop stressing or worrying or when I'm left alone I instantly start freaking out. I know something is wrong with me but I am unable to be checked in my country as men over 21 can no longer get help from where I am. Not sure about anyone else but I'm worser than ever and my health is also deteriorating at 23 years old too. So I just thought id share my life experience so far.