30 & literally broken

My birthday is at the end of May. I was feeling on top of the world at the beginning of May - I graduated from college, I had the job of my dreams, things were going well with my family. I told myself that I was going to be “thirty and flirty and thriving” but about a week before my birthday everything got messed up. I think I’m still trying to figure it all out. I ended up spending my 30th birthday in the ER and had back surgery 5 days later. I’ve been on modified bedrest since then and have been so lonely. It’s affecting everything about my life including my family and my job. I’m so frustrated.