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What does "Empty" feel like? BPD
Personality Disorders Support / by winterspruce
Last post
 August 22nd
...See more I have been diagnosed with a borderline personality traits/ currently diagnosed with "history of borderline personality disorder". In the past i have struggled with feelings of depression a lot and am diagnosed with "depressive episode unspecified" currently. My psychiatrist has spoken about me as experiencing feelings of emptyness but i don't understand what this means... I don't think I feel a feeling that i would describe as "empty". The momments she would describe as me having an emptiness, i would describe as "sadness" and "feeling depressed". I have experienced feeling a heaviness in my chest. I felt sad, felt sad, depressed, hopeless, alone etc. Why does she say "empty"? Is she describing an observation of an "emptyness" in my life that makes me feel depressed? What does feeling empty actually feel like? am i just mislabeling my feelings of sadness? What does feeling empty feel like? Thanks for your reply♡
nonbinary loneliness.
LGBTQ+ / MOGII Support / by winterspruce
Last post
 September 22nd
...See more Hello. I am a transmasc nonbinary person. I identify as an Androgyne. i use he/him pronouns. These are my ramblings about how being a nonbinary trans person has got me feeling down. I feel alone because I am a nonbinary person. Even when I explain to somebody that i am a transmasculine nonbinary person and what that means for me, I feel like they still either see me as a binary man or a (emphasis on Trans) TRANS "man" ie a super masculine queer female. They still perceive me in an inaccurate way. In trans spaces I feel wary sometimes of binary transgender people too because of gatekeeping and transphobia/hate which some people binary trans people have towards nonbinary trans people. I also feel left out in places meant to be mental health resources and safe areas because they tend to be geared towards women. And if they are specifically targetted for men i also don't fit in, so I feel like i don't have a lot of resources. I have had negative experiences relating to this and it makes me feel alone and invisible. Like no one really cares what I've gone through. Sometimes when I think about it I feel alone in society. Like i am invisible and the only one like me. I am always the unnamed "other". I don't fit in society and I'm tired. I was born and lived as a girl for the first part of my life and it was wrong. I transitioned to male and lived as a man. It lessened dysphoria about my body but it wasn't quite right either. Now I just want to be me. I just want to be. I want to be free but now i feel alone, invisible and misunderstood.
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