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theashofaflower
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What's wrong with me?
Depression Support / by theashofaflower
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 July 22nd, 2016
...See more It began a year or two ago when I suddenly started feeling extremely suicidal. That's all I ever thought about and I could never find away around it. I was terrified that I would kill myself, but even more terrified that I wouldn't. Now I'm a highschooler and the feeling passed for quite some time. Don't get me wrong, I'm still horribly pessimistic and wouldn't exactly mind if I died, but I don't encourage it. From time to time I experience such strong urges to kill myself that I have no idea what to do. I simply find a spare room or go outside if none and cry. I don't quite understand why I get these urges. I suppose I hate myself most of the time but I don't get why it comes so randomly. I don't get it. Am I depressed? Do I need help? Is this normal?
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