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I hate my skin tone. Please help.
Self-Esteem / by resourcefulDay8807
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...See more I know this sounds bad- and it probably is. I'm not racist nor am I colorist. I love black skin but I hate it on myself. I was born in a German, African American/Native American household. Half of my family is white or mixed. They say they're black which is true. But they're extremely light, they don't understand my feelings. My mom is one of them, she always talks like she understands and can't seem to understand why I hate my skin tone and she makes me feel bad about it. But she doesn't understand that unfairness I'll be subjected to just because of my skin tone. How many dreams of mine were crushed because of my skin tone. How much harder things will become due to my skin tone. I'm not dark by any means, I'm also considered light skinned. I maybe look like a mix between Cardi and Doja. I have heard so much stuff in my life, tbh, I don't want to explain that part. I also want to cosplay white characters, I know that I can and my skin tone should not judge what I can do, but it does. I know people will judge me. I can't help but hate my skin tone so deeply. My aunts, my mom, my Oma, and my cousin are ALL really light skinned. I've grown up with these people, yet I can't help but want to look the same. I remember being upset when my Oma would tell my cousin how similar they were. My Oma was my world when I was younger so I think that helped start my hate for my skin tone. Ik this is cringey and straight out a book but I used to look at magazines when I was younger and wonder why I wasn't the same tone as my mom or the models. I used to try to scrub my skin off in the shower, hoping it was just dirt. I don't think I've recovered mentally because I still don't like my skin tone. Sometimes I do still with its all just dirt. That if I cut all my skin off, when it grows back I'll be lighter. I know that's not true though. Please don't tell me to get off the internet. These issues have been with me since I was 6-7. I didn't have access to the internet till I was 9. But even then, I only played offline games. I didn't get on social media until COVID started. Which was during the summer before 7th grade. 
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