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intellectualBeechwood8141
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i wear shorter shorts, but
Anxiety Support / by intellectualBeechwood8141
Last post
 May 14th, 2022
...See more im way more comfortable in shorter shorts, but im also worried this kind of shorts spreads more germs. im very germaphobic, but i want to be comfortable. pants aren't really comfortable. what to do?
bad shirt
Trauma Support / by intellectualBeechwood8141
Last post
 May 19th, 2022
...See more right now i am exhausted from anxiety. there's a shirt in my closet that i wore when witnessing something traumatic, but it's been washed since then. so nothing is contaminating my closet, right?
what to do about a specific situation
Anxiety Support / by intellectualBeechwood8141
Last post
 June 23rd, 2022
...See more // gross warning alright so im germaphobic. there's pets in the apartment, and i dont function too well with it. i'm kind of miserable after living in this apartment for a while but i guess that's not the point. the point is, i saw the cat in the litterbox but then she proceeded to rub her butt on the floor. how am i supposed to fix this? my family has a carpet cleaner but i don't know how to use it
my last post was about germaphobia, but…
Anxiety Support / by intellectualBeechwood8141
Last post
 September 10th
...See more i feel better about the last thing i posted about (sort of) and i think i just need some supportive words or maybe some reassurance about germs not being that big of a deal?
intense germaphobia
Anxiety Support / by intellectualBeechwood8141
Last post
 September 10th
...See more in the bathroom the shower curtain freaking touches the toilet handle for some reason and now im worried that everything has germs on it to make things short. including myself, who is sitting on the couch and just casually spreading my germs to the couch. i thought i was overreacting which is why i sat on the couch in the first place but i started worrying again. how do i fix this situation?
possible ptsd and its effects
Trauma Support / by intellectualBeechwood8141
Last post
 April 6th, 2022
...See more if my interests right now can sometimes remind me of a traumatic incident or if i think of a traumatic incident in the middle of doing something i like, does that mean i have to get rid of the thing i like forever?
i dont even know if it's actually ptsd
Trauma Support / by intellectualBeechwood8141
Last post
 April 1st, 2022
...See more there might be triggering stuff in here but i dont have the heart to list it right now in my childhood my dad had a farm and i had no choice but to work on it because i had no choice but to do what he said or else he'd whip me with a paddle. at the time, i thought getting whipped by a paddle and being antagonized by him was the worst thing in the world and i was too afraid of him to stick up for myself, but i guess over time ive learned the hard way that the mental scars i have from what he made me do at a young age is way more scary than getting whipped this is an issue that may only bother me and no one else, and everyone else may think im stupid for it, but whatever. when i was young, one of the tasks on this farm involved me witnessing animals getting slaughtered. since then, the topic of eating meat has always been a bit weird for me. but it was repressed well enough but within the past few months, ive gotten so repulsed by meat that i cant even force it down, or maybe it's just that the thought of eating it makes me very distressed because it messes with my morals. i get images of harmed animals in my brain and it's disgusting and disturbing. i also cant look at images of ducks. if any of these disturbing forms of imagery appears in my brain when i was thinking of something positive moments prior, im worried that thought is ruined forever i used to be fine with eating fish, but today is the first day i get disturbed by it. i ate leftover sushi and proceeded to have a crisis. it's in my body now i dont know what the hell to do. im freaking out
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