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I feel so stupid sometimes
Anxiety Support / by blueorchid1010
Last post
 11 hours ago
...See more I'm studying for the toughest exam in my country, and i started studying as a challenge... because i like challenging myself. Well now I'm half way through the journey so i got a bit more intelligent than before. Now everyone thinks that if I'm studying for this exam then i know everything..and i when i do something dumb sometimes...they make me feel so small by saying " how can you be so dumb" Not a day went through when I haven't felt dumb here Even when i was right in few factual arguments...they still made me feel so dumb and didn't accept that i can be right in this aspect..😫😫😫 it's so frustrating...well I'm learning to ignore it...but it's still frustrating..
Me being thin is post traumatic
Newbie Hub / by blueorchid1010
Last post
 Monday
...See more I used to be healthy and have a perfect BMI when i was little ... I remember once my grandparents visited for the whole month... They used to bully me... especially my grandfather...he used to say that ... In a very bad way...that look at her how she's eating...why she's eating so much....she didn't even done anything all day... I always had a fast metabolism so i needed more food than usual...but since then i got really disconnected from wanting to eat anything.... Since then...my body belives that only when i do some productive work ..only then i deserve food...and that's how i lost my appetite ... Physically my blood tests and everything came out normal...and I'm afraid that it's a mental issues I still love food but i can't eat much.....
Is it just me?
Anxiety Support / by blueorchid1010
Last post
 Saturday
...See more Is it just me or everyone has to behave way more mature than their age? Is it just me or everyone else is not able to enjoy their youth? Is it just me or everyone remember teeny tiny bit if their lives ..be it Happy moments or sad. And when i do remember those moments..my body decide to become sad for that whole day!
Small town
Anxiety Support / by blueorchid1010
Last post
 September 10th
...See more The town where I live is not very great, i got diagnosed by TB , but my doctor is also really not great. I doubt a lot of people doing their job here...i mean i got vaccinated for TB when i was little, ofcourse I'll get my tests positive..but how can a doctor here be this dumb! And they no nothing for sure! The only thing i hate about this city is lack of health infrastructure.
Should i meddle in my parents relationship?
Anxiety Support / by blueorchid1010
Last post
 September 6th
...See more My parents got in a fight in front of me and my sibling... They were arguing about their past problems...well i pointed out the fact because they were involving us in that argument... apparently they didn't liked facts and became silent after that...is it a good thing that i meddled? Or should i have been quite and torture myself from inside!
I don't know what to do next
Anxiety Support / by blueorchid1010
Last post
 September 6th
...See more My dad is most probably cheating on my mom, and the worst part is , only i know about this... He cheated on her for 4 years..but eventually he ended his extra marital affair and they lived happily since then...but somedays back i saw on my dad's phone ..that she(his ex affair) still message him ..and he saved her number by the name 'honey'.. The audacity! I got very anxious and don't know how to deal with this feeling...if I'll tell my mom.. she'll go mad again...(Last time she became suicidal and left home) I don't know what'll happen this time... I can't tell my elder sister because she just got married and enjoying her honeymoon period... I don't want to take away that happiness from her.. I'm too afraid to talk to my dad on that matter because he has been the best father...he gave me his best..learnt parenting for me..took classes for academic so that i don't fall behind and he can teach me...but he is the worst husband to my mom.. I don't know what should i do next... I meddled in between of them before too...but eventually i got hurt and my mom and my dad resolved their dispute... I don't want to face this situation again
Tell me your personality type!
Newbie Hub / by blueorchid1010
Last post
 18 hours ago
...See more I'm an INFJ-T , it's really hard for me to fit in and i love my own company... what's your personality type?
Do you think i should change my lifestyle?
20 & Over Community / by blueorchid1010
Last post
 September 6th
...See more I'm so stressed that i have stopped reacting emotionally, either it converts to anxiety or nothing at all..then again anxiety is also an emotion which i don't like.... I have no appetite, my doctor is running tests over me if anything is wrong with my body, but the wait for these test results..is real... it's only adding up to my stress. I'm also preparing for a competitive exam....i don't see any success ahead .. I'm hopeless.. Everyday i just give my best in my studies... Concluding i only know one thing right now... it's that how to study... I don't feel a need to talk to someone or meet someone even my long distance boyfriend who really loves me..i also love him and my family..my friends...but i feel loss in energy when i meet someone...only way of gaining energy for me is studying.. Am i sounding obsessive or geeky?
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