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Depression Support / by Shewrites1107
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 January 17th, 2015
...See more I'm currently in the 10th grade, and I'm 16. I've been dealing with depression since I was nine, but it has progressed as I aged. I was always that tall, over weight kid in Elementary School, but it got worse when I hit middle school. I saw everyone with their flings (boyfriends and girlfriends) and I just hated myself for being fat and ugly..I started doing things to get attention but that failed and only made me think worse of myself. Everyone saw me as the outgoing kid, with a mouth to match and I can't disagree. I had friends or people I kept by my side but I knew they didn't get me. At all. By the summer of 8th grade I had joined this amazing website called Tumblr, at this time I was dealing with alot of self hate and suicidal thoughts. I met this group of girls (over the internet) who basically saved my life..this lasted for a while. I turned to the internet for everything. I used writing as an outlet, but I also gained social aniexty. When I entered highschool I noticed that I needed social skills to make it. I also noticed that kids are so damn MEAN and judgmental.. I spirled into another deep depression, mixed with alot of panic attacks. It's like whenever I take two steps forward, I get pushed back 10 steps. My parents don't get it, they think this is a teenage stage of life, and think I'm being dramatic. What do l do? I'm emtionally numb at this point and this effects my current relationship because I'm extremely passive and just keep alot to myself. Help if you can. Idk. **(excuse my errors, I rambled but I wanted to get my point across)**
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